I do not know what to say. What you all think of me. Who even you are. I worry if I have any of your approval. Or maybe I don’t actually as much as maybe I should. It worries me that maybe I just don’t care enough. That I really have done nothing with my life that any would call successful. And that I ended my personal ancestral line… After so many millennia of a line until it created me, but then I will not reproduce by my own choices. I worry if that shames you and I feel that makes it harder for me to connect with you. It’s not that I don’t want to it’s just that I don’t feel worthy… I feel somewhat “worthy” to speak some with the Netjeru, but even then I do not feel any responsibility to them that I do not choose to have to them. But I wonder as I get older did I destroy my responsibility to my ancestors even if I had my reasons? So, blessed Akhu, please forgive me if you can.